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writer : poet : spoken-word lyricist : songwriter : model : actress : entrepreneur

::8.08.09
on vacay...taking an online hiatus...big things poppin'. i need to focus, and finish the task(s) at hand...and since i'm going to be on this journey alone...i'm taking some time to get to know me better...

::7.21.09
she never loved me...

::7:20:09
starting all over...

::7.6.09
MARK YOUR CALENDARS for 8.2.09!!!
B will B[E] back on the mic....@ Club Rockstar
2524 McKinney @ Live Oak | Houston, Texas

::7:5:09
still...see below
RIP Steve McNair...
love me today...i may not
be here tomorrow...

::6.28.09
heartbroken...

::6:26.09
in mourning...
rest in peace Michael...
i loved you...

::6:23.09
everyday I thank god...
I thank god for the sun, for the clouds, for the birds, for the bees. i thank god for you...for me...for helping me see things aren't always what they seem to be. I am thanking god today for life. for love. for shelter and health. I thank god for my possessions and future wealth. I thank god for them...for her...for all the things I've been through. I thank god for smiles, hugs and kisses. I thank god for arms, legs, fakes, and bitches. I thank god. I thank god. I thank HIM...for it all.

I've never been a "bible beating in Chirch every Sunday" womyn. I wasn't raised in a church. I was taught he existed, and to develop my own relationship with Him early. when I do what I'm supposed to do, HE & I get along fine. But as soon as I stray from my path, we have a "problem". see...sometimes I think I can do it own my own. this "life" thing. and everytime, he shows me the hard way that I haven't learned my lesson(s) yet. here we go again...

but you know what? I ain't even mad this time... :). he always blesses me, so why complain? today...and everyday...I THANK HIM!!!
because i know he will see me through this storm, and whatever he takes away, he'll only replace with something BETTER! :) he always does. and i'm soooooooo looking foward to it! THANK YOU GOD...in advance!

b


::6:22.09
"every woman i have ever loved has left her print upon me, where i loved some invaluable piece of myself apart of me - so different that i had to stretch and grow in order to recognize her, and in that growing, we came to separation, that place where work begins"
-audre lorde

i'm in love with a woman, and its been driving me crazy. i let my insecurities, my fear, and other people's opinions interfere, and then i decide that my work is more important than anything...even her. i think i've lost her. but i will continue on my path, and hope she will join me once again.

relationships are not easy. they require work, and i've never been afraid of hard work. so if you're in a relationship...cherish it. nurture it, and keep in mind what it was that drew you in. everyday will not be bliss. every year will not be full of smiles, but if you truly love someone the experience is worth the while! :)

b

::6.21.09
i'd rather be alone than in the wrong company. but my biggest fear is
dying alone. i don't want to die and there isn't anyone to keep my
blood alive. and even if I am not blessed with a child of my own, I am hoping that I will have a family who will love me just the same....it's always been important to me to have someone while I'm in my
"starving artist" phase. I want someone here in the trenches with me, during the hard times. I don't want someone to thinking after I've done all of this hard work by myself, that they can just swoop in and reap the benefits. people don't make long-term investments anymore. it's all about the withdrawals; what they can get at the moment. I'm only concerned with people who are willing to make some substantial deposits in me, not a short-term investment. I'm more than just a good time...more than a good fuck...more than the illusion people tend to get caught up in...I'm deep...though I'm often called shallow,
among other things behind my back...perhaps I'm just very sensitive...[Octavia] Butler dubbed it "hyperempathy" in the "Parable of the Sower"...that's what it feels like sometimes when I am in the comapny of others...[long sigh]

b

::6.20.09
enjoying a nice, quiet afternoon alone...doing laundry and shredding more old docs. i should be out playing...enjoying the beautiful day. :( i will most likely miss Lisa E.'s Bon Voyage show. i need a clone...

b

:: 6.19.08
i've been writing...so much my right feels as is if someone shot it.

b

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